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Some pics to share nice ones.


Today, 26 Nov 2007.
Only one team left in class with 7 members.
with just 1 presentation.

Stone thru presentation.

nothing much to talk abt.

Pretty much a GOOD day to start off the week.

HAHA.

Anyway, haven't been blogging much.

Life is ok. everything is alright just some complicating things which I dun like and hate, that y I'm direct and rash in decision cuz I think somethings cant be taken time with. Have to act within short time or else consequences wld be huge.

Me n Mike, we're really n talkin terms now.
I still miss him alot, cuz he haven't been replying my smses.
well well must be busy with his new girl.
MUAHHAHA.


LOL.

FIT FACE!
I need to see u soon


=D

Tat's it for now.



<3Jess

Quotes of my life.

Why does it take so much to bring me to my knees
Why does it take so much pain for me to see
this strength is only found when i am on my knees
Why is it so much to show i am weak

I've always been second best
so it wasn't surprising
when I found out I wasn't the only girl in his life now.

He doesn't even realize the little things he does that breaks my heart.

I know there are some things I can't change. I know there are some situations where apologies hold no bearings. I know that twists of fate bring people together, and sometimes "everything happens for a reason" can tear them apart. I know that I will never forget you, for you will always have a place in my heart.

I don't know why we all hang on to something
when we know we're better off letting go. It's like
we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.
Some of us say we'd rather have that something
than absolutely nothing, but the truth is,
to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all

Another poem, another line,
another girl pretending she's fine,
Another hour, another day,
she wishes she could get away,
Another heartbreak, another tear,
another excuse she doesn't wanna hear
Another paper, another pen,
she writes she wants to be strong again,
Another story, another lie,
another night that she will cry,
Another band, another song,
another days passed, slowly gone,
Another scream, another doubt,
''Kick me while I'm down'' to him she'd shout
Anotherforced smile, another broken heart,
Just another girl wishing life would restart...

I read "sorry, try again" off the inside of a bottle cap; story of my life.
I never come first, I was never the winner, I was never the best.
There's always someone better. Maybe next time; I did my best.
At least I tried. All these things are supposed to make me feel better,
but it just reminds me that no matter how hard I try, how I gave it my all,
I failed. I'll never be good enough for him...

Lastly,


I don't think you see it boy,
Sure I said we could be friends,
But that doesn't mean its over for me,
I don't know if it will ever be truly over for me
Sometimes it seems like you feel the same,
But if thats the case why can't you just say it?
I'm standing here with my heart in my hand waiting for you,
Don't be afraid, I did it, so can you.


Jess

Came out alive

With every ache & pain I hide
The endless nightmare will not subside
I treasure nothing but the blade
Hoping one day the tears will fade


It takes so much just to smile
When thinking of carving all the while
The hallway down the path of life
Causes nothing but madness & misery

Because everyday just get longer
As i get weaker instead of stronger
I'm sick of pretending, the laughter is fake
But how many risks am i willing to take?

I don't feel satisfied with cuts anymore
Inside i am empty, i just want more
I always seem to feel the need
To cut myself a thousand times over and over

This is my story, now you know
My life feels like hell, should i just let go?
Sometimes i seriously do wonder
if i should just let go.

I think if I'm going to have to live like this, with this depression, disordered cutting, sadness, fear, self hatred forever
then what's the point in life?
Am i really going to be able to get over this,
because i have been trying.

The emotional issues that won't go away
that never really got fixed are there and
they haunt me every single moment of every single day

Jess

Suffocating

SO TAKE UR TIME
i want it all in just 1 sentence
so i can comprehend y u left me stranded torn and useless

Words cant describe what i feel inside,
So tell me y u left me.
Make this story easy, easy come easy go.
And what i love so deeply is kinda short and crazy
I wanna see her before u go.
Gettin over u is the hardest thing i'll ever have to do,
Keep this in mind as u waste ur time with her, gettin so overrated.
What u said wasn't what u meant


Now it's all over.




I will move on and reconstruct myself all over again.

Fox gf.

Girlfrnd.



My lesbian partner in crime.
=D
Really sweet.

Enjoy her sexual tendencies.

LOL.


Giving me quotes of love.
Care and pure friendship.

I treasure her in my life.
Cuz she taught me important lessons in life.


WO AI NI GF.


hope ya'll be happy always.


<3Jess

Buanana

Buanana, my dear frnd.

My laughing partner.
My partner in crime. =D
Silently there to gimme a pat on my shoulder.
Telling me things would be ok.

=D

Not like certain ppl who will gimme mood swings.
Or
be comfty with their better half when I'm downright not in the mood to see such images.


I LUV U BUANANA.


WO AI NI.

=D


-Jess

Soulmate.

ADRIEL BFF



Always been there. Supporting me. Knowing me.
Never once told me to GET LOST.
Knowing I'm heartbroken, he cheered me up.Trying to help me glue back my heart.


This bond.
So special.
So unique.
It makes me wonder.
How much I actually love my bff in most ways.
-It's just a special feeling of hope and peace I find in him.
That no one actually let me felt before.
In a funny way.=D

No one, even Pubes or Microphone can't be compared to him.


BFF.


SOULMATE<3


-Jess-

Fallen.

Woke up in the middle of the night, just don't believe
everything's all right when these thoughts are running
around my head. and it's late, so I don't really
want to say goodbye, so I just head down the
road that lead u down. loud as a gunshot. "I'm sorry" were the only words
written on the note you left.


I've fallen too deep, in my own melody.

I thought U wanted a break to study.
But what now?
A new sweet girl.






It killed me.
I'm traumatised.

I have to move on now.
Really.


Jess.