Deluged.

It poured and poured so heavily.
My heart tormented by the rain, the storm...
it has to take the downpour all alone.

Feeling lonely, miserable and drenched with lies and delusions.
It hanged on nvr once gave up on me...
Nvr once told me that life is bitter n I shld end my life.
Instead it pull me thru times like this.
No matter how hard it needs to...it always try to pull me thru days.

But recently, it is telling me it can't take the nonsense I gave.
Too hurting, too vicious and too acidic.
Love turns to hate...it's too hard for it to digest.
My heart gave away, to a wrong person....I dunno is it e wrong person.
Or me not able to slip back into reality.
Brain cried to me" It is just one guy!"
Heart told me "He is one fucking gd guy!"

Me-"I'm too hurt to go on, in a relationship built on lie and delusions"

I wanna live again.
For myself, just for once.


Shadows, storms, deluges and hate/love....
GET OUT OF MY LIFE JUST FOR ONCE.

Cuz my heart needs a rest.
Prepare for better things to come.





2 yrs
=
utter bullshit & utter silence.


Jess<3

Waves.

Pish~

It went by...one by one...PISH~...

Harder each time and more hurting each time.

If it could just stop, maybe life would be easier.

I could draw a nice breath in.
without stifling with a cry.

I will return back to this world soon.
not yet thou.


Get back to this world girls.
Love doesn't makes the world goes round.
Cuz no matter what u all still will be right here standing.
feeling the same hurt over again n again.
But the guy will never turn a head back.

Saying how much he luvs u.
It's just mere words which can be erase with a broken promise.

Love, fragile.
broken like a useless piece of trash.

Nothing else matters anymore.
Cuz



When a girl stopped crying.
She turns stone cold.
heart just stays calm.
Nothing will affect her anymore.
No one will.

Nothing will make her give her heart away anymore.

Nothing.


Jess

Stranded.

Here I'm
Left stranded in the whirl of confusion, lonesome and utter silence in my heart.
This ain't right, my heart is quiet and calm yet I feel the certain heartwrenching moments always lingering ard.


Its calling out to the whoever.
Pls answer my heart.




To where it belongs.
Cuz I can't take it any longer.





It kills.

Jess