Love is watching someone die.

What he said, she said, might kill you and leave you dying inside.
But its a matter of choice, ain't it?
Never let your heart take over your mind, it's not fucking recommended.

Much love,
Jess

Stab stab stab.

Ever wonder how many people befriended you in the past how many years of your life?
Those whom you thought would last a lifetime but never did last?

Nono, I don't mean friends.
Friends don't exactly just find you when bored, lonely or hurt by anyone.

Those are whom I call talk and fuck off now partner.
I don't need you when you're not needed.
Sounds logical eh?
Sounds like I'm being cynical eh?
Word.

I have been pretty disturb by surroundings recently.
I don't mean environment.
I mean "partners" , people whom you guys called"GOOD FRIENDS"

Seriously this time round I couldn't be fucking bothered.
Holidays are in and I'm gonna enjoy myself.

To me, if I really reached my tolerance to a person.
I'm gonna fucking missing in action.
I don't like confrontations.
Or maybe you guys can just describe me as coward and someone who doesn't treasure "human relationships"
But no, I have my reasons, I have been through this nonsense with that person before and
I just realise that no matter how hard I want to make "friendship" work, it never happens.
Not just to the certain person but people around me.

I find myself constantly trying.
I always thought that friendship never did have to TRY to make it work.
Ain't it a little too taxing when everything I do just doesn't show or ain't appreciated?

People who try to be nice to people whom he/she hates?
Say nice little things which he/she might not mean it at all.

Hypocrites,everyone is guilty of it.

even me.

So I'm cutting myself from this league.
I don't need friends whom thinks they can put people down just because they're normal.
Once or twice a joke is ok, but not putting people down and SERIOUSLY ruining them is not fun at all.


I need to repent from these sins.

maybe I'm PARANOID eh. haha. (pun intended)

Fuck, I'm going M.I.A for reals now.





P.s
Buanana, I didn't know you would actually blog about me.
I know its the most sincere post man.
Luv you childhood bud.
Remember, "home" is where we belong!

Pps

Prabs, good luck on your performance.
Fuck care those who tries to bring it down.
You know indians are always the most hardworking bunch.
HAHAH.
GRREEAATTTT COMMITMENT DEPICTS GGREATTT WORK
Humble, my son HUMBLE.
Dedededeeeeeee.

:D

Jess AKA Red apple