Love is watching someone die.

What he said, she said, might kill you and leave you dying inside.
But its a matter of choice, ain't it?
Never let your heart take over your mind, it's not fucking recommended.

Much love,
Jess

Stab stab stab.

Ever wonder how many people befriended you in the past how many years of your life?
Those whom you thought would last a lifetime but never did last?

Nono, I don't mean friends.
Friends don't exactly just find you when bored, lonely or hurt by anyone.

Those are whom I call talk and fuck off now partner.
I don't need you when you're not needed.
Sounds logical eh?
Sounds like I'm being cynical eh?
Word.

I have been pretty disturb by surroundings recently.
I don't mean environment.
I mean "partners" , people whom you guys called"GOOD FRIENDS"

Seriously this time round I couldn't be fucking bothered.
Holidays are in and I'm gonna enjoy myself.

To me, if I really reached my tolerance to a person.
I'm gonna fucking missing in action.
I don't like confrontations.
Or maybe you guys can just describe me as coward and someone who doesn't treasure "human relationships"
But no, I have my reasons, I have been through this nonsense with that person before and
I just realise that no matter how hard I want to make "friendship" work, it never happens.
Not just to the certain person but people around me.

I find myself constantly trying.
I always thought that friendship never did have to TRY to make it work.
Ain't it a little too taxing when everything I do just doesn't show or ain't appreciated?

People who try to be nice to people whom he/she hates?
Say nice little things which he/she might not mean it at all.

Hypocrites,everyone is guilty of it.

even me.

So I'm cutting myself from this league.
I don't need friends whom thinks they can put people down just because they're normal.
Once or twice a joke is ok, but not putting people down and SERIOUSLY ruining them is not fun at all.


I need to repent from these sins.

maybe I'm PARANOID eh. haha. (pun intended)

Fuck, I'm going M.I.A for reals now.





P.s
Buanana, I didn't know you would actually blog about me.
I know its the most sincere post man.
Luv you childhood bud.
Remember, "home" is where we belong!

Pps

Prabs, good luck on your performance.
Fuck care those who tries to bring it down.
You know indians are always the most hardworking bunch.
HAHAH.
GRREEAATTTT COMMITMENT DEPICTS GGREATTT WORK
Humble, my son HUMBLE.
Dedededeeeeeee.

:D

Jess AKA Red apple

I know

I guess I know what it feels like to be just really down and out at the moment I woke up with my eyes staring at the white ceiling thinking of how my day would go, knowing its gonna be bad because shit happened.


I just hope one day someone could just be by my side and I would just know its okay to feel this way and he will be there to bring me through tough times and be it happy times too.

I would wanna share my everything irregardless of happiness or sorrows.
Little hugs and kisses, making life good for both of us.
Knowing that little things wont't bring us down.

Just the two of us.


I'm gonna be the one he chooses to listen to, not because I'm his true one but more of because I'm right. He will choose to listen to my words rather than people who is trying to bring him down.


He's gonna be my best and last till we part to the other dimension.

Hand in hand we are gonna work our way through life.


Loving him with all my heart.

Loving me with all his soul.


Baby, we'll take this ride and enjoy each other's company.

Make this work.


Making it work.



P.S: Love you whoever you are out there.
xoxo.

Sincerely,
Me.

You

There's always something in the way.
There's always something getting thru.

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me, Me,
In You
In You

You-Switchfoot

-Jess

Strawberry fields forever.

Living is easy with eyes closed,
misunderstanding all you see.
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.
It doesn't matter much to me.







Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about


-Strawberry fields forever,The Beatles.

Jess

Human?

Friends around mealways tell me

" its always human to feel this way or that way."

But what exactly is "human"?

What goes on in the minds of the different souls that wonder how life could go?
How life could be when the chance was taken away from someone who never had live the "HUMAN" life?


Ponder.

Jess

Happy?

People ask me what I want to be in future.
I told them I want to be happy.
They told me I got the question wrong.
But I told them they don't understand LIFE.


Live life.
Don't let your life live you.


Jesss