what am I?

I have no feeling.
I'm not sad.
I'm not happy.
I'm not anything.

When love has no limits.

"A circle is round it has no end, that's how long I want to be your friend!"

Congrates to Elaine and Anton.
You both taught me life lessons from what you guys are doing and already did.
which is to, seize the moment, be spontaneous and travel whenever we could with someone close.

I shall go on road trip soon!
and....

I'll miss you guys although we din't make too much of memories together.
But yes...I'm getting emotional because you guys are leaving singapore.
and I won't be seeing you guys any soon and anyways......
I LOVE YOU BOTH.

This blog might be on indefinitely hiatus.

Jess

I need alittle more luck

to get me back this time...everytime I try...i get tongue tied.

It's sad when people you know become people you knew; when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you use to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. It's sad how times can change.


What ever happened to ME?!

I'm seriously need to get UNstucked!
I feel too much of this unnecessary emotions everyday.

This post is so fucked! and messed up!

Drunken minds speak sober hearts- I think its so true.

AH. FUCK ME. PERIOD.


Jess

Star in your life?

Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shootin star
But

What if that star is not to come
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizon darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope

Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light i've yet to see?
I know my heart should guide me but
Theres a hole within my soul
What will fill this emptiness inside of me

Am I to be satisfied without knowing
I wish then for a chance to see
Now all I need,
Is my star to come...

-Wind Nocturne by Lunar Silver Star

Has ur star arrived and entered ur life already?

mine hadn't, cuz there's still a hole in my soul.

-Jess

:(

I'm losingmyselfalready.

and I turned into the monster I didn't wanted to be.

Spouting loads of nonsense just because I'm mad and angry at myself.
to even start thinking of stupid incidents and talkin to that same old person.
I shld really kill myself really.

What do I really want from him/her?

I think I just want an answer.

but no.

I'm just empty inside.

sayitisntso.

-Jess

Unreal

I can't believe I didn't actually "relax" myself for my taiwan trip.
Food was alright...but I found it a tad bit too rush.
But I like those seas I visited...it was cold, yet very nice comfy in a way.
It was like the sea was there to listen to my thought and comfort me with its sound of the waves.

I'm really still rather upset with things that I found out and CONFIRMED.
But I hope buddha give me strength to lead me through this stage.
I don't wanna drop those tears whenever I think of that incident.
I wanna to be able to laugh it off mentally and emotionally.

I wanna be real.

God, lead me through this w/o all these hurt.
Bring me someone that show me rainbows instead of blood and skulls.
(just a description)

Bring me someone...real.


Jess

Morning breeze

never felt so cold, yet....warm.

I never felt so awake in the mental sense.

I was looking of the window, the slight mist, the sounds of moving vehicles...this is exactly the moment I want in life.
This slight reflection we all hang on to.

I woke at 6.15 am to be exact...talking to my mom and sis.
Enjoying a good bowl of blueberry nut crunch with milk, yum.
Getting alittle excited about the Taiwan trip tomorrow.

At least this time round, I'm going with madam butterfly and my mom.
Although some of the others I might not know but it will definitely be a blast filled day.

Aight enough of random thoughts.

I don't know what it is, I just cry sometimes.
Maybe I'm just so oblivious to the things going on around me,
that I don't realize that I'm hurting as much as I am,
so when the tears stream down my face &
I don't have anything to say don't ask me why I'm crying,
because I simply don't know,

just hold me,


I just want to be held.

-Jess