:(

I'm losingmyselfalready.

and I turned into the monster I didn't wanted to be.

Spouting loads of nonsense just because I'm mad and angry at myself.
to even start thinking of stupid incidents and talkin to that same old person.
I shld really kill myself really.

What do I really want from him/her?

I think I just want an answer.

but no.

I'm just empty inside.

sayitisntso.

-Jess

Unreal

I can't believe I didn't actually "relax" myself for my taiwan trip.
Food was alright...but I found it a tad bit too rush.
But I like those seas I visited...it was cold, yet very nice comfy in a way.
It was like the sea was there to listen to my thought and comfort me with its sound of the waves.

I'm really still rather upset with things that I found out and CONFIRMED.
But I hope buddha give me strength to lead me through this stage.
I don't wanna drop those tears whenever I think of that incident.
I wanna to be able to laugh it off mentally and emotionally.

I wanna be real.

God, lead me through this w/o all these hurt.
Bring me someone that show me rainbows instead of blood and skulls.
(just a description)

Bring me someone...real.


Jess

Morning breeze

never felt so cold, yet....warm.

I never felt so awake in the mental sense.

I was looking of the window, the slight mist, the sounds of moving vehicles...this is exactly the moment I want in life.
This slight reflection we all hang on to.

I woke at 6.15 am to be exact...talking to my mom and sis.
Enjoying a good bowl of blueberry nut crunch with milk, yum.
Getting alittle excited about the Taiwan trip tomorrow.

At least this time round, I'm going with madam butterfly and my mom.
Although some of the others I might not know but it will definitely be a blast filled day.

Aight enough of random thoughts.

I don't know what it is, I just cry sometimes.
Maybe I'm just so oblivious to the things going on around me,
that I don't realize that I'm hurting as much as I am,
so when the tears stream down my face &
I don't have anything to say don't ask me why I'm crying,
because I simply don't know,

just hold me,


I just want to be held.

-Jess

Getaway.

hmmm....a getaway from Singapore soon.

to taiwan for a week

Wish I could use this time to set my priorities right.
Take this time to really relax....

:)

Jess

Thoughts.

Can I keep you?
-Casper

Remember me this way.
Fantasy is always better not turned into reality.
Becuz...it's not always not for the better.
It's always for the worst.

Jess

Lessons in life

I saw some teens from a event I volunteered for.
They are younger and come from a girls' home.

But they are not any different from the rest of us.
But why are we giving them weird looks or judgement?
Who are we to judge who they were/are?

It doesn't really matter or did it really matter?

Enjoy the time on earth.

Make more friends and less enemies.
Judging can only lead to misunderstandings.
Cut it down and make this world a much better place.

peace.
Jess

Kiss the rain

Was listening to a piano piece

and was discussing with buanana
Ever heard of anyone kissing the rain?

Hell, is rain even kissable?

rain drops are like so fragile,
the moment it touches anything..it fades off &
after sometime it evaporates.

like broken piece of small glass, not significant but hurts when probe?

I only tasted rain before, definitely not of the best taste.

Why do people only learn to treasure beautiful things around them when it is gone.
Why cry or get upset over it?
Is it so hard to seize the moment and never let go of what's true to our soul?

Try dancing and "make love" with the rain someday.

I will try it soon.

Like they say, find joy in things ard us.
Defo makes us happier!

Cheers

Jess