Journey.

It's been a journey.

How I wish moments can stay still and I will still be around.

boy, I really like Europe.

I miss your hair in my face

Fill in the fucken blank, my love. CAN YOU HEAR ME.

-Jess

Virtual World.

Goodbye to thee.

Back to myself.

:)

Much Love,

Jess

They all wanna be...

Close to you.

:)

dream come true...

-Jess

Love of my life?

I'm falling in love
But its falling apart.
I need to find my way back to the start...

-Jess

Much misses.

R.I.P Jimmy Sullivan aka The Rev

(1981-2009)

Love.

Stay brutal.

-Jess

Your body might been gone but your soul still lives.

You think you know me...but you don't

Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter

or cynical about love, but rather makes me realize that

if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person,

how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

-Jess

So close.

kills me to just breathe you in.

dying inside.

numb me pls.

-Jess

Almost had you

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

-Fine frenzy

Jess

Hey you, look at how high you flew.

Too many things to finish.

Too many deadlines.

A new born.

This harsh world.

Oh, pls god, bless this fragile soul.

Fly baby fly.

With much love,

Jess

The Last Goodnight-Pictures of You

This is the clock upon the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a newborn child,
Before he starts to crawl
This is the war that's never won
This is a soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone,
Praying for her son

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab,
Just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside
I'm high up and dry

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing


-Jess

"love" is your favorite word.

misery you're always coming over me,
and jealousy do what you will, do what you will

just do.

and... stand on the edge with me,
hold back your fear and see,
everything seem alot clearer...
nothing is real till it's gone.

Let your heart defy logic.

Heart shall beat for me and your blood shall run colder.

-Jess

Burning cigarette...

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees

...
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
...
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

-Whiskey Lullaby
Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss


Like what people always say...
It takes so much courage to love a person wholeheartedly
but just one simple moment of folly to make it all go to the drains.

Can one ever forget hurtful things people do to each other ?

Autumn days will fade away but memories will always stay...

Still unhealed.when will it be the day I'm free with all these thoughts and get that someone that I yearn for.
-Jess

Fancy?

A goodnight sleep on a nice roof top? :) Right J???? K LETS GO.

There are things in life that never last. But the truth is, you never lose them until you let them go. Life is about choices: hanging on, holding back, letting go. Some things do last if you just let them, and if they let you.

-Jess

10 goals for the moment.

Yes J, so far so good. :)

Here's mine.

1) Finish reading-Dont let me go by David W.Pierce.
2) Finish reading-My sister's keeper by Jodi Picoult.
3) Finish reading the last few chapters of-Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer ( yes I know, I'm taking too long...I'm really lazy lately.)
4) Start reading-Time Traveler's wife by Audrey Niffenegger
5) Buy the book-Secret to Teen Power by Paul Harrington
6) Good meal with J
7) Nice chill out session with Prabs and Abbs before all our lives get hectic.( before Prabs become Botak Man)
8) Chill out session with J
9) Dinner with Omar and J
10) Stop thinking of things that makes me feel unworthy.

-Jess

ps: these goals are not in particular order.

Love after love.

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

-DerekWalcott

What will you do if you can't even promise your other half that you will be there for your own wedding?

I'm back.

This trip was worth it.
Made new friends.
Shared new/old thoughts.
Know people better.

It sucks that all good things will always come to an end.

Where's the starting & ending point?

Road trip soon.

I need it.

Feel terribly desperately in need of getaways.

After graduation probably.

And suddenly I become a part of your past. I'm becoming the part that don't last. I'm losing you and its effortless.


-Jess

& I'm leaving.

to Korea.

be back soon.

Love all.

-Jess

Growth and courage

Some quotes to live by...

After all these months, all this time, so much has happened. The talks, the phone calls, the laughs and the feelings. If I were to look back on them, I would never have believed that, that person was once me. I wouldn't recognize that girl because she's so different from me. But I guess changing and moving on is growing up, I'm growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life. And maybe in the future, there are more changes to come, but as for right now, this is who I'm proud to be.

This weather reflects my face
Rainy day.
This place hurts my eyes.
I think I could break down and cry.
I enter each day with a sigh.
Its so hard to wake when there's nothing at stake
Today I think I'm gonna break,
the hours drag on for what seems like days.
Another day has slipped right by
And I've done nothing.

KOREA PLS.

Yes, in less than a month's time....I will be in Korea!!!

Hot tea, chilly weather and much much more thoughts.

Hope it will be a blast!


-Jess