Unreal

I can't believe I didn't actually "relax" myself for my taiwan trip.
Food was alright...but I found it a tad bit too rush.
But I like those seas I visited...it was cold, yet very nice comfy in a way.
It was like the sea was there to listen to my thought and comfort me with its sound of the waves.

I'm really still rather upset with things that I found out and CONFIRMED.
But I hope buddha give me strength to lead me through this stage.
I don't wanna drop those tears whenever I think of that incident.
I wanna to be able to laugh it off mentally and emotionally.

I wanna be real.

God, lead me through this w/o all these hurt.
Bring me someone that show me rainbows instead of blood and skulls.
(just a description)

Bring me someone...real.


Jess

Morning breeze

never felt so cold, yet....warm.

I never felt so awake in the mental sense.

I was looking of the window, the slight mist, the sounds of moving vehicles...this is exactly the moment I want in life.
This slight reflection we all hang on to.

I woke at 6.15 am to be exact...talking to my mom and sis.
Enjoying a good bowl of blueberry nut crunch with milk, yum.
Getting alittle excited about the Taiwan trip tomorrow.

At least this time round, I'm going with madam butterfly and my mom.
Although some of the others I might not know but it will definitely be a blast filled day.

Aight enough of random thoughts.

I don't know what it is, I just cry sometimes.
Maybe I'm just so oblivious to the things going on around me,
that I don't realize that I'm hurting as much as I am,
so when the tears stream down my face &
I don't have anything to say don't ask me why I'm crying,
because I simply don't know,

just hold me,


I just want to be held.

-Jess