Saturday, December 15, 2007

Have u ever wonder why a person looked soundly aslp when lying in a coffin and it seems like nothing could ever wake him/her up.

A body so cold and lifeless yet it has a slight smile to its face.
Sometimes I wanted to ask "the body" , why the smile?
Is it better dead?
Is it better to be away from earth?

I noe it is definitely better w/o the sickness.
w/o being a person living in a world full of masks and deceptions.
Definitely better living in a world where all ur worries just subside alil lesser in a spur moment.

I definitely also dunno what goes on at the other dimension but I do hope grandpapa is living ok there.
No bullies.
No hypocrites.
No worries.

Cultural and aesthetics class questioned.
"What is peace?"

I find no definition for it. What I see ard me aint no peace.

They strive hard to destroy everything beside them slowly and watching everything die in front of them, in one way or another.

Peace? I fret not.

No one ever noes what is the definition of it.
No one will ever find out what is it.
But for grandpapa I hope U find the peace u wanted.

I wish u all the best.

U're very luv by me.

I'm sorry I wasn't a gd grand daughter.

I didn't do my best.

But I noe grandpapa like u easy going n nice.

I hope u didn't laugh at us too hard at the prayers.

I noe u're somewhere laughing at us so bad.


U were e one bringing us the grown up cousins together again and have some gathering of sorts, laughters and nothing lesser.
This type of gathering has always been a missed since everyone was busy with their lives.

I like this type of gathering.
But not this type of events that gathered us.

Thanks once again grandpapa.


R.I.P


Jess.





Thursday, December 13, 2007

R.I.P

R.I.P Grandpapa.

I'm missing you and you'll be missed always.

I'm sorry I hadn't find the time to visit you when you were hospitalised last time.

Now it's too late.

<3 Grandpapa.


Reminiscence...
Jess

Monday, December 10, 2007

BFF


He made a difference in my life. Whole lot of difference.

:)

He's loved. n I will always be looking over him.



Jess

ps: BFF lets lie on the tracks someday and forget abt the world.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Mind.



Second post of today.

I have to say it out cuz I'm very breathless over it.

It is taking my soul out to try and understand how's he feeling.
I've tried to be understanding. Supportive of how's he with his new girl.
Telling him what to do.

He said thanks.
I could only say no need for a thank you.
Cuz, no matter what he can't fix back a broken heart.

he asked, will things still be the same if we get back together.


I said I dunno. Maybe yes maybe no.


But I noe it wont be e same cuz he will have to hurt Monique.
It's so totally not cool.

I havent lost any feelings for him.
But I noe Monique deserves better.
just only 2-3 months with her, Mike is very into her. I noe it
Woman's sixth sense is fucking accurate.

He said this to my frnd.
Just an extract from whole convo.


Him: u know jess is the best gf i eveer have

seriously

but its like i already drag monique into this i can't hurt her and i dont wanna hurt jess too

i really dont know what to do

i think i really turn out like both of her ex after all



I have one thing to say.

He doesn't know what is he doing at all.

and it hurts.
treating it like a game of manipulation.

(9:35 PM) MIke.:

i think its something thats gotta do with fate



fuck fate.





It's designed by our own hands.





I still heart u.





but it's too late for apologies.






Jess

Night to the thrills.

Hi all,

Life's been pretty good.
Busy with sch activities.
Play Time ended 2 weeks ago for Drama.republic.
It was pretty good.
Good experience and I can say Prince's Groom is much less scary than Reality Crashes In.


Evon and Me

Me and The Prince's Groom gang

Me and Drama.Republic

Night trail yesterday night to today morning.
I slack with my lovely mates at Causeway point until the sun came out before we left for breakfast at Mac's Yew Tee and then head home for a good rest.


Buanana and Me

Our attempt to make the trip feel scary but failed. LOL.

Eza and Me lying on the dirty floor of outside Causeway point at early wee hours.

The night never looked so beautiful.

Lastly, I would like to say.
W24R really rocks. and bonded really well. No anti socials at all.
LUVS.=D


Best Team Presentation for Problem 11 Enterprise! =D Luv Mandy our dear motherly faci.

The gang of funny faces.

Eza and me with snow cap.

W24R


Luv,
Jess

Ciao.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

SIGH.

SIGH!


better not to find out so many things!

ahaha.

:(

PWNAGE!


Jess

Apology.




I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say...

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late



I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
"Sorry" like the angel, heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeahah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeahah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...
-Apologise
(timbaland ft One republic)


I miss fitface.
Attraction is always there whenever I see him.
lust,love, like whatever.
just a attraction.


Everytime I see him its like the last scene in It's a boy girl thing.
When in the prom...left him n me.
then
the tree.

wow.

LOL.


ok, anyway life's been ok.

Grades are cool.

=D


Jess